You might have wondered why I’m weird enough to have a mattress countdown on the KatGalaxyBlog.com homepage. I’ve been in pain for a few months now. Working in an office chair for nearly three years and failing to take its effects seriously has led me to this discomfort and worry of the physical kind. Ergonomics was merely a buzzword before I started my professional career. Now I’m paying for it.
For a very long time, anxiety kept me from getting up from my chair and taking a break. At my last position, breaks were seen as weakness. I was terrified to take my butt off the chair and my eyes off the screen. Little by little, though, it eroded away my health.
I was getting faint at work and couldn’t focus. I had a lot of headaches and my muscle mass decreased. Thankfully, I had the courage to leave that job and my old idea of the office chair last October and I am now in a more relaxed and humanized work environment.
While my overall physical and mental health improved after October, a new work desk with poor ergonomic settings that I didn’t pay much attention to (I’m young! I’m naive!) started destroying my back.
I market neurosurgeons for a living, and now I have cervical spine issues. Perfect timing.
After the Christmas holiday, I finally set up my office for enhanced physical success. One thing I’m not doing, though, is getting up from my desk.
And it’s all me this time.
I’m driven, I’m a hard-working, people pleaser to a fault. My clients and boss love me, but my neck, back and shoulders? They hate me right now.
I get regular massages, I’m incorporating more yoga and stretching into my daily routine, and I just bought a brand new mattress. I’m incorporating hot and cold therapy, focusing on strength-building exercises, and hoping that I can get myself back on track before I need to do a marketing/neurosurgery barter.
My anxiety and fears about failure have led me to sit in my desk most of the day, everyday, not thinking otherwise. Terrible posture because I’m nervous and stressed. My mood has helped lead to my physical pain.
And now, my pain affects my mood. The days surrounding New Year’s were very tough — my pain was at a height. I had to take a lot of ibuprofen and guilt for being such a jerk to my husband. I was a real pain to be around.
I can’t let my pain get that bad. I need to be active and cognizant of this injured area for a while. I haven’t seen a doctor because I believe that it is an at-home fix. But if I need to, if it goes on too long, I will.
Pain and sickness have always had a big impact on my mood. This is another reminder of how important it is to focus on both body and mind.
Hope you all are having a great start to the year…how does pain or sickness affect your mood? Do you have other chronic conditions that affect your bipolar?